Tonight was the media film festival at mi school

I was feeling pretty good about it all considering I spent the last week and a bit helping to put it together... Not only that but my experimental film got into the finalist for the WA TAFE media review awards (Which I attended last night),, it didn't win but that's okay coz the only reason i entered it in the first place is because my teacher asked me,, i never expected it to win... It's not as good as she makes it out to be

I am really suprised that I even got in to the finals... i lmao when i think about it XD ... I have this theory that the only reason I got into the finalists is because there weren't enough entries in my category


Anyway... I didn't really want to go to the film festival,, but i there are a nuber of reasons i did:

1. It's compulsary for all specialist artsmedia students to attened

2. I helped to organise it

3. I wanted to see the Twilight parody My class put together on the BIG screen.

4. My daddy and little sis #2 wanted to come and i wanted to show them my film that apparently was good enough to get into the finalists.


My film was scheduled in to feature last as part of the finale` and my film even got a mention in the opening speech but something must of happen and it didn't appear in the film festival at all...

I was very very upset

Don't get me worng,, I don't give a hoot weather it appeared in the film festival or not,, I don't care that I wasn't the winner for the review awards... I don't even care about the film at all ( maybe a little,, but not enough to be proud of it and show it of to every tom dick and harry)

No... I was upset because I wanted my dad and sister to see it
All night I was waited each time the title "year 12 eperimental" came up on the screen my heart would speed up hoping that the what little family had turned up would see something i made by my self...
When it all ended my heart sank... I had never felt so terrible before (that I can remeber) It's such a horrible feeling to be waiting for something to the point when your about to burst and it never comes

Needless too say as soon as the f.f ended i wanted to ball my eyes out then and there... But i didn't want to look like a complete and utter douche bag
I tried so hard to keep it all together while i was around everyone,, but as soon as I walked through the car park and dad said how disappointed he was... Well that just set me off it was all silent crying in the car then when i got home 30 mins later I let it all out

Hahaha I feel like such a noob... crying because my film didn't get shown... I'm such a loser XD

I wish I had a clone,, that way i could slap myself multipul times saying "Pull yourself together woman!!!"

That'd fricken' hilarious

I've calmed down now but now I'm getting the whole sympathy treatment from my parents
like i just went to help my mum take out the garbage,, I could clearly see that she needed help but she was all like "na na just go back to what you were doing" pfft I wasn't evern doing anything to begin with

And then dads like "here I shall brew you a coffe to make it all better"
Since when does he brew ME a coffe especially during the week!! It's only on weekend and even then I'm only an after thought when there's coffee left over in the pot.

And now they want to call my media teacher,, how embarrassing and I keep telling then i'm fine and that its all okay but they keep saying that it's not... I think that up for me to decide

Now I thinking that it's a good thing i didn't invite my aunty and cousins and best friend and next door neighbours... Hahaha if my reaction wa this bad becuse of two people,, imagine what it would have been like for nine :S

on the plus side I had one of my art pieces on display on the pinn-up board

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Wow this is really long... And the first time i've poured my heart out in words

Hahaha... I feel like a big baby,, but i suppose it's a good thing that i'm typing all this if i keep all my feelings and emotions bottled up inside like i always do,, i'll probably end up like this little emoticon >>>

Actually ... That'd be funny to watch

Whoop!! Payday tomorrow

Finally I can buy something for my birthday (which was thursday last week) Mum and dad were going to give me money $150 but the haven't yet... and i haven't really asked for it But i'm gonna get me something guilt-free with my pay... Probably more manga,, maybe bleach Vol 27 or maybe some more new copic markers! YAY ^^

But i also have to put aside some money for dad's b'day on fri

I'm thinking of getting him a bunnings voucher,, I would like to give him $100,, but i am a little tight on money Considering i don't get paid much tomorrow due to the fact I haven't work much since i tore 2 of the major ligerments in my right ankle... I swear it was such a pain in the ass... I can remember that day clearly

I was in holiday programme day care room playing helicopter with some of the kids and i landed awkwardly... I heard this really loud crunching noise I just sorta stood there trying waiting for the pain to pass for a few seconds,, then i tried moving and it was really painful then all of a sudden i had trouble breathing,, but it was a weird feeling
It felt like I knew the fundamentles of breathing i just forgotten the partical side of it... It was realllllly trippy
I was trying so hard to get my lungs working and start breathing that I could bearly hear anything people where saying... I ended up laying down on the floor just focusing on breathing...

When everything calmed down my supervisor told me to go home,, but me being the stubborn person i am refused and insisted on doing it
Then when i finished my shift i went down to rockignham to return library books and stuff
stupid move,, very very stupid move now that i think about it... But at the time I kept saying that i'm fine and that it's just an injured ankle

anyway even though i insisted on continuing my daily routines and going to work my dad was like a nazi nurse... I'm sure if there was anyway for me to go to the bathroom with out leaving my bed he would've made me do it... But when it came to my exam,, his attitude to it all did a complete one eighty

Such a long entry... Who reads pplz journal entries anyway
Not me that's for sure
lol

I shall sign off with a inspiring quote

Everything in this world
Exists to wear you down
-Tite Kubo (bleach vol 21)

Not really inspiring,, but it's true and i like it ^^